University of Thinkers

Categories: BrainFood for SoulThink.Webwork By: stefani

universityofthinkers

‘Stef… Happy Birthdayy…!” that’s all my friends said when day on that month is on October 27th. Another year has past, and yet another year must face. Yes,  I thanked God with all that I have now.  Not that I was not grateful for all this years.

Actually it gave me a moment of reflection. Well, I did it everyday to rewind the day and remember what I have been done for today. But,  I don’t know, this time feel different. Maybe because my age. Ha..ha.. Yeah, facing the world of 3.0 would be ‘make sense’ reason.

In many ways, life has taught me to be strong. And yes, I have become a strong person. But the same time, life made me always challenge myself. The result, I always never satisfied what I have achieved. And that often made me have no self confidence and no trust in my self. Complicated huh..

Complicated or not, God already have His plan to my me and my life. If I was thought I am strong, then the last of  2,5 -  3 years really made me re-think again about it. Yes, that happened when I entered to a building E1A.

It looks like a just any building in this office complex. But from the moment I stepped in to this office,  I sensed  it will give me a new perspective about my self and my life.

Turn out, it certainly did. You know, when you have been working in to many places, you see yourself with half full glass. You had experience, you are getting more accustomed to adapt with new place, new people. You know how to interact with new co worker. But, sometimes, in my experience, we need to see our self in half empty glass. In my point of view, this perspective made a person always curious. When we feel we don’t know anything, we eager to learn or searching to know. Well, okay.. the same time it made you feel dumb too, but feeling dumb is important sometimes.. I think.

And, that is exactly what I felt when I become the permanent member of E1A. The strong quality that I was proud of, bam! That feel nothing when you feel dumb. The glass is not more half full, but it is half empty. I feel lack of knowledge. I feel lack of creativity. I feel dumb. Not just once, but couple times.

When you said you seek a challenge in life, be careful because  life will give it you. And when you face that challenge you don’t have any other option than to face it and conquer the challenge.

Yes, Stumble and fell of was happened, but give up is not the answer.

Being a member of E1A made me to reach beyond my limit and made me experience all that. Especially working with 2 persons who I think in my humble opinion , is superman and wonder woman. They are duo that made us to dig deeper, to think deeper than usually we ever did, push us to the limit that sky is the boundaries.  I must give my bows to these amazing persons that I almost believed they really have super power.

For 2,5 – 3 years now I have been stumble, fell off, and yet, I rise up, learnt, and continue. Every time that happened, my glass was filled. And gradually the glass is not half empty anymore, but it is half full.  Now, slowly I regain my strength back. And certainly made me reach new level of my life.

And that because the experienced I had in this building E1A.

In the past, when I read my friend’s card, (it is said, Think.web) I asked to myself, why namedThink Web? Is it because this office related to web? Or it sounds so catchy? And now, I realized I understand what it meant. Not it (coincidence) related to web but it also define the persons inside.

We are not just couple of persons who do the job and get paid, but we are all too students. We are here not just working, but also learning. Sometime there are tests, challenge. And we have moments of success and failed. But for sure, we are growing to be better in the place, now I said, university of thinkers[stf]

What’s next?

Categories: Bla bla blaFood for BrainFood for Soul By: stefani

This is really pathetic… you know when I read this ‘Daily Bread’ blog. Ha, pathetic with my position as content provider but never able to blogging. Crap! LOL *laughing myself*

I named it as ‘Daily Bread’ so that I can do some updates daily… haha… yeah, daily once a year… lol…shame on me. What a heck, I hope now it’s a start… a good start to fill this empty blog.

In 3 days… year in calendar will change into 2010. Another year comes and goes. And everybody will think about new resolution about their life. Resolution, why always comes along in New Year? Why not per month, per 3 month, or six months? Or it is just a habit or tradition so the coming new year will not such so empty.

Self revelation is what I do when it comes to New Year. Am I happy with my life now? What have I achieve, what have I loss? Am I in the right track in my purpose of life?  And after it takes long consideration, I’ve come to the next question: What’s next?

Yeah… what’s next? It is simple question but turns out it is difficult to answer. I want to do this and that in next year, but is that the purpose of my life? Is that the right path to achieve happiness in my life? Off course all the ultimate purpose of life is living a happy life, but in what kind of happiness that make me happy?

That brings me back to my self revelation. It’s just circle cycle in my head, and I must dig deeper than just want to this and that. Some friends say making other person happy will make you happy. Help others, help you. Well, that is correct. That also the purpose of mine, but then again, we can not satisfy everyone. I am just human and selfishly I do too want to be happy without thinking about others first but hey…, I am trying.

This revelation comes to the BIG question that I always avoid this time. Yup, what do I want in live? What is my purpose in this life? Ha! Crap!  I should finish reading ‘Dunia Sophie’ back then in college.

All this time, I always try to embrace what comes in my life, but at the end, at least until now, I feel I haven’t achieve anything … yet.  Not that I don’t gratitude what I have now, and not that I barely achieve anything (geez, I am not that loser), but what I want to say is dreams can not just taken away. Some say you have to be realistic, or say: “Pleaseee, you can’t spend all the rest of life just to catch the dreams.” Ouch… reality bites. Indeed true, but that’s not gonna stop my mind to wander. I don’t want to be the one who said, ‘What if” because that would be sucks.

“What if” is negative I assume, the repentance that should can be avoided if we made the right decision? Then again, who can predict if what we are chose in life is the right one? I believe many people chose because it is best for them not based on what’s right or wrong.

So what is my resolution in coming New Year? I asked my self again. When I think about it, after long revelation, I remember the movie “Yes Man” and the background story from the writer who wrote the book. Come across to my self to do this. How refreshing if I can say ‘Yes’ to all. Where will it take me? Actually I have other resolution in coming 2010, but that’s a secret I keep to myself.

Anyway, this posting just a bla bla bla thing in my head today, so don’t too serious to read it. I bet you are all have great life.

This is my first posting in English in this company blog, comments, critics are welcomed. But hey don’t too harsh, I am sensitive person. :D

Happy New Year 2010 everyone!

Xoxo ;)