What’s next?

This is really pathetic… you know when I read this ‘Daily Bread’ blog. Ha, pathetic with my position as content provider but never able to blogging. Crap! LOL *laughing myself*

I named it as ‘Daily Bread’ so that I can do some updates daily… haha… yeah, daily once a year… lol…shame on me. What a heck, I hope now it’s a start… a good start to fill this empty blog.

In 3 days… year in calendar will change into 2010. Another year comes and goes. And everybody will think about new resolution about their life. Resolution, why always comes along in New Year? Why not per month, per 3 month, or six months? Or it is just a habit or tradition so the coming new year will not such so empty.

Self revelation is what I do when it comes to New Year. Am I happy with my life now? What have I achieve, what have I loss? Am I in the right track in my purpose of life?  And after it takes long consideration, I’ve come to the next question: What’s next?

Yeah… what’s next? It is simple question but turns out it is difficult to answer. I want to do this and that in next year, but is that the purpose of my life? Is that the right path to achieve happiness in my life? Off course all the ultimate purpose of life is living a happy life, but in what kind of happiness that make me happy?

That brings me back to my self revelation. It’s just circle cycle in my head, and I must dig deeper than just want to this and that. Some friends say making other person happy will make you happy. Help others, help you. Well, that is correct. That also the purpose of mine, but then again, we can not satisfy everyone. I am just human and selfishly I do too want to be happy without thinking about others first but hey…, I am trying.

This revelation comes to the BIG question that I always avoid this time. Yup, what do I want in live? What is my purpose in this life? Ha! Crap!  I should finish reading ‘Dunia Sophie’ back then in college.

All this time, I always try to embrace what comes in my life, but at the end, at least until now, I feel I haven’t achieve anything … yet.  Not that I don’t gratitude what I have now, and not that I barely achieve anything (geez, I am not that loser), but what I want to say is dreams can not just taken away. Some say you have to be realistic, or say: “Pleaseee, you can’t spend all the rest of life just to catch the dreams.” Ouch… reality bites. Indeed true, but that’s not gonna stop my mind to wander. I don’t want to be the one who said, ‘What if” because that would be sucks.

“What if” is negative I assume, the repentance that should can be avoided if we made the right decision? Then again, who can predict if what we are chose in life is the right one? I believe many people chose because it is best for them not based on what’s right or wrong.

So what is my resolution in coming New Year? I asked my self again. When I think about it, after long revelation, I remember the movie “Yes Man” and the background story from the writer who wrote the book. Come across to my self to do this. How refreshing if I can say ‘Yes’ to all. Where will it take me? Actually I have other resolution in coming 2010, but that’s a secret I keep to myself.

Anyway, this posting just a bla bla bla thing in my head today, so don’t too serious to read it. I bet you are all have great life.

This is my first posting in English in this company blog, comments, critics are welcomed. But hey don’t too harsh, I am sensitive person.

Happy New Year 2010 everyone!

Xoxo